22lbs Down now...but not doing so good

Honestly time… I have been slacking.   Sense the beginning of this journey in January (four months) I have lost 22lbs.  That is great!  Up until the last month my momentum and focus have been right on!  I have been working out, tracking, and keeping up with my goals!

Had some family stuff going on this past month which kind of threw me for a loop, dug up some past junk, and frankly I have been having a difficult time rediscovering the importance of what I am doing, or just finding my focus again.  Those that know me and history or just have some understanding about PTSD, anxiety disorder, and Panic Attacks, I was triggered.  Having difficulty getting back to a good sleeping pattern and staying overall balanced.   I feel like I am getting better and then I have a downswing day again so I know that I am not quite out of dark waters yet.  I am definitely climbing my way out now.

I am very fortunate to have the support, resources, and learned knowledge/tools/tricks to work my way through.  Still functioning for the most part and going through life.   Getting unmedicated sleep again for over the past week and a half.  No real melt downs or episodes, just felt like on the edge (which sometimes is worse…sometimes I wonder if a good fit would get some of this out of my system).  I got out puzzles again this past week and I don’t know why I didn’t do it weeks ago!  Puzzles while a major source of stress for some are one of the best therapy’s for me.

On a positive note I have not blown what I have done.  Still losing, two pounds total these past 3 weeks.   8 pounds in the last month and a half!   While not tracking consistently (and I am finding that is really the key for optimal weight loss), I am generally watching what I am eating and trying to keep moving.   I honestly feel like before Weigh Watcher’s I would have been up five pounds this past month.  I am an emotional and stress eater.

This week I am getting back to basics!  On Sunday I went and planned out my entire week from the large entrees to snacks.   I have a feeling I will be adjusting it quite a bit if the rest of the week goes like today has.  It gives me something to work off though.

Today went …well, if I don’t jinx it…perfectly.  I ate a good amount of points spread out through the day and have not gotten to a point where I am overly hungry.   Making a point to work in my fruits (2), vegetables (4), dairy (2) and healthy fat in each day (which is olive oil).   I got my exercise in today.  I actually brought out Turbo Jam and did very well!   I add about 3 points to each day when I workout because I am trying to eat half of the activity points I earn.

So, I am feeling optimistic.  I am not going to try to think too much about this week’s weigh in.  I will be happy if I lose even a bit.  I won’t be surprised if I am about the same or up a few ounces.   This past week really was not very good and I checked the scale just yesterday and I was up pound and a half.  So, we will see what Wednesday brings.

I know it isn’t about the numbers…it is about how I feel.  When I have a healthy plan for my eating it tends to carry over to the rest of my day.   Making more of a point to move when I need to, getting an extra lode of laundry done…working on the yard.   Just makes my day go well.

I know tonight when I lay my head down on my pillow it will be one of the first days in almost a month that I feel encouraged by my day, the entirety.  Tomorrow is going to be the same.

Thanks for reading!

Tessa