On February 24th I made the following post on face book.
So, I had completely gone off program. I did not even track those two bad days and just took away all of my weeklies and maxed out my daily points. I was at the time more concerned about not getting back on track/keeping going than what I was actually doing. I was pretty proud of myself.
I have tracked every day sense though. If you look you will see I am not being quite as a stickler as I was before, but honestly honeymoon is over with this lifestyle and I am living! It feels good that I can indulge in a treat but still be moving forward with my health. I am finding that when I do make a choice (and it is more of a conscientious choice than it has been before) to go off healthy eating I am compensating for it the rest of the day/week. It seems to work itself out!
Ouch...those two days are embarrassing. It is not something that I am proud of but I am relieved I was able to get back to it within a day or too. I am not striving for perfection. If I do I would set myself up to fail. Most of the rest of the days that I am over my goal line (except on the 25th when I had another splurge day) I had exercise points to use (which I have been trying to use about half of those per someone's recommendation).
So, if those charts did not make sense the following should. It is my weight loss chart!
13.4lbs lost so far! Very happy with this. I am happy or the 2.2 drop after having those bad two days. You may notice I missed a weigh in. It is coincidentally the Wednesday after my two bad days, but I so badly wanted to go because of that. We honestly had some bad weather come up and I had to miss it. So, that is another first…my first Weight Watcher’s Meeting missed.
I am overall feeling great and still going strong! This is the longest I have been committed to something health wise sense college. I am still VERY optimistic that this is going to work with me.
I really feel like what I have been lacking these past few weeks is spiritual growth. I have not picked up my bible, devotional, or Made to Crave book. I have thought about it many times. I have made a plan to do it. Part of it is just winter blues and just some life stress going on. No more excuses and here I go.
Made to Crave reflection.
I am on Chapter 6 now of my Made to Crave series by Lysa Terkeurest. It is titled Growing Closer to God. Very appropriate title as usual for what is going on in my life right now.
This chapter focuses on how to get closer to God. Lysa states that it is not an action or series of actions that will get you in His favor, but (and I love how she puts this), “Growing closer to God has a whole lot less to do with any action we might take and a whole lot more to do with positioning our hearts towards His.” Going to church being with fellow believers is great, sitting down daily with the scriptures is beneficial, but those things and more will not help you attain eternity with your Father. It is all about the heart.
Something that Lysa states later in the chapter made me feel slightly less guilty about not being as disciplined lately. “Yes, I want to lose weight. But this journey is so much more than just that. It is really learning to tell myself no and learning to make wiser choices daily.”
Hey, I’ve been doing that! I can think of dozens of positive decisions I have made over these past several months that I would have never made before this. Saying consistently no to Birthday Cake at several parties, not partaking in a piece of my mother-in-law’s Pineapple Upside Down cake, talking myself out of going to Culvers for a treat before a long journey… the list goes on and on. It really is this self-control that has helped me feel closer to Jesus, even if my habits are lacking.
My new favorite scripture was repeated twice again in this chapter. It might be permissible but not everything is beneficial. I have repeated that in my head and aloud several times.
Lysa Terkeurest makes a point to say that she is not stating that food is evil, but it is when the food is being held up by Satan saying, “you will never be free of this battle.” Thinking to my past there are many times of guilty and discouragement after including in unhealthy food. I did feel like I had lost, that I was weak. There are all kind of temptations out there; some more obvious than others. My constant battle with food cravings and unhealthy eating habits is really a temptation that had taken hold of me. It kind of snuck up on me. I am seeming to learn that more and more.
